it’s been… quite a while since i’ve posted anything on here.  a lot has been going on and i don’t really know where to begin, but here we go…

God’s been opening up some deep parts of my heart i haven’t really allowed myself to feel in a while or given my brain a chance to think about it.  growing up without much of a father figure, i recently realized i really didn’t know what “God the Father” really meant.  i didn’t know what it meant to depend on a father, to have that intimacy, to seek advice.  seems like a very obvious side effect considering my upbringing, but i guess it’s taken me a while to really understand what that means for how i treat God.  i seek approval rather than love and independence rather than community.  understanding more of God as Father, as my Dad, has deepened my intimacy with Him and has brought our relationship to a point where i can better understand Him and His love.  not just love but also His discipline, jealousy, and protection.

aweeesommmme :)

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